The Time Machine series features posts from years past.
When we set our clocks back this past weekend, I remembered why I struggle so much in November. It’s cold, dark, and Christmas is still two months away. About four years ago, I wrote this post to encourage my own heart, and yours too.
We’re heading into a tough month. For many people, depression spikes in November. Did you know that? If you struggle with depression, that is not news to you. The clocks go back, and for some reason, our feelings of hope go with it.
Maybe it’s because we finally notice just how DARK it is outside. And the days just get shorter and shorter, until just before Christmas, the brightest of celebrations.
Less daylight really DOES make a difference to our hearts. In these coming days, I will be praying:
“Father help my heart believe
That your love is singing over me.”
-Steven Curtis Chapman, from his song Love Take Me Over
For His purposes (which so far have not been made known to me), God has seen fit to allow me to experience bouts of depression. And November has been one of those months that has, historically, been difficult. It’s kind of funny, I guess, because I REALLY don’t like to appear weak. I am the “gal with a plan”, so to speak. And I really would rather seem like I’ve got a handle on things.
The truth is, HE’s got a handle on things. And that is so precious to me in the deepest part of my soul. I am not just praying for deliverance from the struggle, I am also praying for faithfulness through it. Because after all, He is WITH me – and that is the truth, no matter what my negative thoughts may say.
Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)
The Lord your God is with you,
the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with singing.