I wrote this when my first two daughters were just 3 and 1, in Spring 2014. These memories are so close to my heart! And I still wish I had “Grandma Eyes”, but I know that it often takes the passing of the years to bring the important things of life into sharper focus.
I came across a photo this evening from my trip to Tanzania nearly six years ago.
She was waiting for treatment outside an HIV clinic in one of the villages we visited. I have no idea what happened to her.
In fact, I had forgotten about her until I saw this.
She said it was okay for me to take her picture. I was grateful. I never thought that six years later I’d look back on it and wonder if she was still alive.
We spend our lives wrapped in the small moments. Then suddenly something from the past appears to remind us that time waits for no one.
I was thinking about what happens every night at bedtime at our house:
“Mom. MOM! MOOOOOOOOMMMMMM!”
I enter the darkness and lean down over her little pink and yellow bed. “Yes?” I whisper, and kiss her little plump cheek.
“There’s one thing I want you to do for me.”
“Ummmm…” (quickly thinking of something) “…can you turn up the story?”
“Sure sweetheart.” I move the volume button on the iPod dock one notch up so she can hear the story-on-tape a little better.
“You’re welcome sweetheart. Goodnight.” I lean down for another kiss on her cheek, and stroke her hair. “Time for sleeping.”
And then a cry from the other room, and a little one who just wants to throw one arm around my neck and rest her sweet head on my shoulder with her pint-sized stuffed Snoopy tucked under the other arm – the perfect position for the night.
Absolutely THE best. And I slowly set her down with a kiss on her squishy cheek.
And then I stand up from the sides of their beds, and suddenly she’s three and she’s one and here we go into month 4 of another year. My half-birthday has come and gone, and we’re nearing Easter celebrations.
Wasn’t it just Christmastime?
I’ve often said I wish I could see these moments with “Grandma Eyes” – with the wisdom and perspective of all those wonderful women who have gone before me. The ones who know better than anyone that they sure do grow up fast, so don’t sweat the small stuff (and there is ALOT more small stuff than you realize, young mama!).
I look again at the woman above.
Time is short.
We must make the most of the moments, because the milestones come faster than we realize.
Oh Lord Jesus, help me savour the sweetness instead of sighing with heaviness. Give me even just a glimpse of life through Grandma Eyes!